Learning To Choose You

I’ve been in this constant struggle. A struggle that some days make me worse rather than better. A struggle that I’m battling uphill one day at a time.

I told myself that I’d be a better me. I would start choosing myself. Not in the “I’m leaving my kids” choosing me, but more being able to make my own choices and do what it is I want to do.

The problem is… I don’t know who I am today. I’ve become so accustomed of doing for others.

I started writing as an outlet to help me cope with the separation, with the changes I was going to have to face. Changes that I asked for. Changes that are affecting everyone around me and I get to reap the sorrow everyone feels.

One thing that I know is that as I’ve looked back on the photos from the past year until now and I can see the difference. I can see that the smile I have is genuine. I started working out for ME. I lost weight and gained muscle, for me. The best part is that I feel amazing. I feel confident in myself, in my choices, and that everything will work out. It may be a long journey and it’s not always going to be easy, but it’s going to be worth it. Every single sad, good, bad and happy moment will be worth it.

Nothing like a sister date night 🥰😎 I never knew I would be able to feel this confident in choosing me.

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