So Close & Feeling So Far

The exciting moment is coming close, six months from having my last seizure. February 7th. Every time I’ve had an episode (as I call my seizures), I keep that moment in my brain. I mainly do it to help keep my memory stable. The unfortunate part, I don’t feel excited about the six month mark.

I don’t feel like it’s been six months because I still have the dreaded feeling, the feeling that I’m worn out and exhausted. The feeling of my body not being able to move. I don’t know what it’s like when I actually have an episode. I don’t have a warning sign when I’m going to have one, it just happens. I’ve been lucky that every time I’ve had one, someone close to me has been around or near to help me. But when I come back from the episode, I don’t even know what happened.

When I was diagnosed, the neurologist gave me a list of triggers that could help me from having an episode. As a mom, I looked at the list and chuckled. Oh less stress and more sleep? Probably not. No alcohol or strobes of lights? Welp, how will I adult without alcohol and an occasional movie? Not enough hydration. Check, check, check. I literally was a walking list of triggers. I did everything I was not supposed to do. And it caught up to me.

Now, they couldn’t give me a reason as to how I became an epileptic. But here’s a list and I can’t do these things I’ve been doing most of my adult life. As I started making changes, I started feeling so much better. I was losing weight, taking my meds, checking out hobbies and I was finally feeling like things were going to be “normal” again. But it’s been short lived. Luckily, I haven’t had an episode, but the lagging feeling of stress and overhaul always comes back.

There has to be a balance. This can’t be how life is forever. There has to be a better way. I just have to find it.

Xoxo,

Sunset

Have You Click Listed Today?

 

Good Monday to you all!

About a month ago, I started noticing signs being put everywhere in our local Kroger Marketplace. Then the brochures came out talking about this “Click List” option when buying groceries. Since most of my work is done from home and I go out mainly to shop or for appointments I thought it was a total waste of money…

Well here I am to prove even myself WRONG! Kroger Click List (if it’s available in your area) is a new and improved way of grocery shopping. Hate the long lines? Tired of your stinky kids adding stuff to the basket you didn’t have on your list? Yes and yes! Click List allows you to create an entire shopping cart online, reserve your pick up time and pick up the following day. Easy breezy right? The best part, you call to let them know you have arrived in the parking area and they come to you AND place the groceries in your car for you! So there must be a catch right? Of course, not everything in life is this easy. So here it is…the fine print. After your three FREE shopping trips there is a $4.95 service charge for the Click List service. Hey, at first I was skeptical. I could be saving that money and just shopping myself for free. Yes, very true anyone can do that. But what I have noticed in myself is that once I make my list, I order online and then pickup (with coupons and Kroger savings) I always stay in budget! Now, some weeks we may need paper towels or dish soap and that adds to our weekly amount spent, but for the most part I’m able to spend under $55/week on groceries. I’ll be letting my blog followers in on those secrets soon too 😉

Owen has gotten used to the idea of picking up groceries and now he just greets the carriers and we are on our way in less than fifteen minutes. It saves me so much time and energy. I actually meal prep better and I don’t feel so overwhelmed by the grocery shopping, loading and unloading with the kids and worrying if we will get a nap in before the grumpiness sets in! I’m sure everyone knows it’s no fun shopping with a sleepy 3 1/2 year old.

Have you tried it yet? What are your thoughts? Likes and dislikes? Also, if it isn’t available in your area, watch out. I hear it is coming soon to more locations AND when the holidays come, oh baby watch out! I know you don’t want to be stuck in the maniac stores the night before Thanksgiving!